God.

You know I love you, I love taking the 4 because its the train you take to work, I love listening to aventura because it reminds me of you, I love aquaduct park because that's where we make out when its nice outside. I threw out the umbrella you gave me that day when it started pouring, and I was cold and had no coat, I was only wearing a tank top and shorts. I cant look at my big ol sack of condoms, because I won't be using them wit you. I can't look at those pants you love me in, I can't think of my mothers baby shower, I remember when I gave you a hard-on and you tried to hide it and failed. I cant step near the church or, Mcdonalds, white castles, kennedy's. I cant think about coney Island because I wanted to take you for your 1st time. I'll never get to look into your loving brown eyes and trust you again, I'll never be able to give you the soft kisses you love, I cant hear "diablo mami cono, te kero mucho." I cant think about you without wanting to cry,no matter how hard I try I love you, this hurts so bad, it hurt me so bad. i cried so hard my mother thought someone died. I havent stopped crying, I havent stopped thinking about you. This blogs make no sense. I can barely think of my life without you in it since you came into it so suddenly.

But why, what other girl fucks you 5 days a week 4 times a day?
what other girl, gives you head 30 minutes straight no breaks?
I treat you like a fucking king and you took me for granted.
What other girl goes out of her way to make sure your happy.
What other girl loves you and your flaws so much, she doesnt try to change you.
Why did you make me feel like you loved me, if I would have known it was just sex from the start, I would have been ok with that I would not have been made a fool.
I don't hate you I would love to hate you, I want you, I want you so bad.
I put you and your needs before myself and my own EVERYTIME.

This really me just sorting my feelings about you, not a real blog with a cohesive flow, its jumbled its whats comming out of my head while I think of you.

When it comes down to it, do I still want to be with you?YES Do I have the strength to deny you? probably not. Will I have sex with you? I hope I don't give you the satisfaction. No matter how hard I try you're not my ex yet, It isnt done yet, the score remains unsettled. I do know that I can forgive, but never forget your cheating, It will haunt me untill I cut you out of my life. You come home in 2 weeks, I knew this vacation would break us. You let that happen. I was here lone;y, HORNY and I waited I WAITED and you couldnt do that for me. Why IM me while your there while your with her, and tell me I'm yours, only yours. Why tell me that I belong to you, why tell me that your only thinking of me. Why. WHY SPOUT BULLSHIT I do not get why you just leak bullshit. What do you want from me? Why do you need me when you have that better looking girl, that girl that speaks spanish the girl thats everything I'm not you have her why have me to? Why claim me as your own as though you've put a tag on my ear? Why are you so set on having me? what do I offer what do I have. I make no sense. You broke everything that we had. I'll never trust you again.

God I wanna fuck you, I want to hold you, I want you to treat me like you always do, with so much love and care like I'm a doll. I love you chiqui, I won't stop loving you anytime soon. Someone makes this right again. I miss your mane of hair i wanna put my fingers in it, I wanna smell your colonge you always smell great. Your so hot. You want me back. You told me you loved me today. You called me baby today. Why are you making this so hard?

Deniseeeee says:
bye baby
CHIQUI RACING... says:
te kerooooo
lindaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Deniseeeee says:<3


I dont wanna leave. I wanna stay with you. I wish we could.