I FINALLY FUCKING GOT LAID. HOLY SHIT. There's a lot to it. I appreciate when people read my long blogs, but you don't haaaaave to read it XD.

For a while now my boyfriend and I have been behaving more like a couple married for 10 years rather than a newly forming relationship. It started with little things, like not kissing or hugging to flat out not having sex. When I asked him about it he said "you need take the lead more." I tried that didn't work, he knows I'm a pretty submissive person, that kind of thing is way out of my comfort zone but I tried anyway. Because I love him. his next excuse was that "Sometimes I just like I'm not in the mood, but I really am you have to learn when to know what that is." I was like whaaaaat WHAAAAT HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW. But again I let it go and tried my best, You can imagine by this point I was feeling pretty sexually unattractive and his lack of general affection towards me made me feel even worse. The issues arising in our relationship were more than just sexual, it was things like his kisses turning into quick pecks never with any passion nothing had ANY feeling, the straw that broke the camels back is when i was laying on his bed watching him play video games. I don't mind this I like games too, I've never been the type of "He plays games allll daaaaay and has no timeee forrr meee boo hoo." kinda girl, But this particular day he played game after game after game I was getting bored. He would turn to me in say "Wow your bored." and would continue to play, I tried to get him into bed with me and he blatantly said "No," not the usually awww maybe later baby... What really got me is when he said... "I've played this game a million times I don't even like it but I guess I'll just play it." In my head I thought I'M RIGHT HERE, CAN WE TALK, PLAY A COOP GAME, CUDDLE, FUCK, BAKE COOKIES, DO SOMETHING WITH ME??? He later told me that my desire for sex was insatiable. Yeah we haven't had sex in weeks and for that I had no right to be sexually frustrated.

I left that day, he decided to feel bad about it when I was leaving and one thing I know about Walter, it's cheesy but his eyes say everything. He had genuine sadness in his eyes, and I guess he knew he had upset me in someway, but he didn't know what he was doing.

Now after that we had not talked for 2 weeks. His internet or some shit, which brings me today I go to his house, I didn't get a hug, or I missed you, or how have you been. I just couldn't stand it I tearfully told him how I felt, and he was seriously oblivious, he apologized profusely and HE actually cried, weirds me out when that happens. After we had a long productive talk we were back to ourselves it felt great. During the laughing and the joking I said "Can we have sex now?" he grinned i grinned we had amazing sex and are back on track, I understand him and understands me. He really is a good guy he just needs to stop sleeping when I come over XD.

So sweet. So cold. So fair.

I love cab calloway. I SWEAR TO GOD.

I will never get sick of his creepy soulful sound. His slick ass hair. His smooth ass dancing and his general coolness.

Stressfull.

=[ He should just marry me now, Since we've already stopped having sex. *badump-chh*

But seriously I read this today and thought to myself MOTHER OF MERCY! I'm in a emotional deprived mar-relationship.

1. Couples have stopped talking and sharing their daily events and happenings. Communication has decreased and silence has developed.

2. Couples have stopped touching and feeling each other with genuine desire. Little to no intimate interaction is happening between the couple to keep passion alive.

3. Husbands and wives have stopped kissing with intensity. Giving spouse’s quick pecks has taken over kissing with passion, love and feelings.

4. Couples desire and fire for each other has deteriorated. Instead couples grow into disconnected, loveless marriage from dead sexual interest.

5. Spouses are not listening to their mate. When a spouse is not listening, sighs of frustration, depression and body language will certainly become present from the lacking spouse. These few signs are evidence of unhappiness and emotionally hurting.

6. Husbands and wives feel their own responsibilities are greater then their mates responsibilities. As a result, one spouse is left feeling unappreciated.

7. Husband and wives are meeting independently to attend the same functions instead of taking an extra few minutes to meet in their driveway and ride together as a couple.



Lulz we're like an old crabby married couple now.

What do I do now?

A Lesson in rhythm and sould pt 2

Ras Choco: I seent dat video you recorded an' i say, you need a little more soul in it though. We need to find more examples of soul

xDennyMonsterx: Clean pastures has a song called I GOT SOUL for sale, it is a piece of the rhyvvumic history that has been over looked by us.

Ras Choco: Ooooh ooh whoops D:

Ras Choco: you gotta link?

xDennyMonsterx: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9UyJ42v-N-I Sad thing is that WE'VE SEEN THIS

Ras Choco: werd, we completely disreguarded soul

xDennyMonsterx: At the start of the song, they are chanting rhytvum and goes on to be mostly about SOUL

Ras Choco: dag
Ras Choco: didn't even notice

xDennyMonsterx: lol

Ras Choco: rhythm in your soul.
Ras Choco: we need to conduct further studies
Ras Choco: maybe rhythm and soul in modern history

xDennyMonsterx: IF rhythm is in ones soul.....That means... it is in fact soul that is the producer of rhythm thus making it the most importtant.

Ras Choco: Exactly

xDennyMonsterx: Right.

Ras Choco: So, if I compare this to Pokemon TCG, you need soul energies to even enable rhyvvum

xDennyMonsterx: Yes! So when african americans say YOU GOTTA HAVE SOUL. They mean it quite literally.

Ras Choco: Yes, yes. I suppose so!

xDennyMonsterx: BY GOD WE'VE FOUND IT!

Ras Choco: So you need soul to enable rhyvvum, and rhyvvum controls all else. So without rhyvvum, or soul, a black person can't do anything, as seen in Scrub Me Mama With A Boogie Beat.

xDennyMonsterx: Yes, scrub me mama is the most important example of what happens without both rhtym AND soul. Tragic.

Ras Choco: Quite.

xDennyMonsterx: I hate you.

Ras Choco: you're a bitch

The birthday Blog.

My wishlist. for my bday 10/21/90

The Nikon D40.


I don't know much about camera's I really want a sort of novice slr camera, and after reading around I think this would be my best bet. Doesn't seem too complicated.

Price tag. $495.99

This left 4 dead skull hoodie that I adore.


Price tag 39.95

wow thats it... What a pathetic list =/

I pretty much just want new clothes.

A lesson in Rhythum and Soul.

Rhyvvum=Rhythm

xDennyMonsterx: Question.

xDennyMonsterx: Soul-Rhyvvum?

Ras Choco: soul-rhyvvum?

xDennyMonsterx: mhmm

Ras Choco: what about it

xDennyMonsterx: black peopel always have SOUL

Ras Choco: true dat

Ras Choco: so, do you have to have soul to have rhyvvum, or the other way around? what is rhyvvum in comparison to things like shooting craps or raising dickens?
xDennyMonsterx: Yeha thats what i'm trying to figgure out now..

Ras Choco: Rhyvvum seems to play a larger role historically,whereas nowadays it's very important that black people have soul

xDennyMonsterx: LOL

xDennyMonsterx: I HATE YOU SO MUCH

Ras Choco: WHAT YOU KNOW IT'S TRUEEEE

Ras Choco: Actually, now that I think about it!!

Ras Choco: In order for black people to pass on rhyvvum, they say "you gotta have SOUL"
Ras Choco: Therefore, I think that soul controls all else

xDennyMonsterx: I concur.

Ras Choco: fuck us

I love NYAF

I can't believe I had more fun Sunday than Saturday. Since I'm writing this so late I don't remember enough for a detailed account, see VQ's post for details XD. I was really sad a lot of the time cause I couldn't make the impulse buys I wanted to, but it was fun enough for me to not mind. I dunno I just love being around Anime fans...Being at NYAF for three days is like being a different world, where everyone knows what your talking about, everyone is laughing what your laughing about people like what you like. It's like a 3 day piece of paradise where Ichigo can be black if he wants, or inyuasha can be that fat kid wearing the same costume as last year, It doesn't matter!

Now for some pics



I fucking LOVE LOUIS.



SERIOUSLY I LOVE LOUIS. He even had some pilllzzzzz



May not be the most amazing Bridget but I had to show loooove.



Sarah and I. I couldn't afford my cosplay so I was just a shitty cat.



For da lulz





Btw I'm making a new myspace. Yup.