I FINALLY FUCKING GOT LAID. HOLY SHIT. There's a lot to it. I appreciate when people read my long blogs, but you don't haaaaave to read it XD.

For a while now my boyfriend and I have been behaving more like a couple married for 10 years rather than a newly forming relationship. It started with little things, like not kissing or hugging to flat out not having sex. When I asked him about it he said "you need take the lead more." I tried that didn't work, he knows I'm a pretty submissive person, that kind of thing is way out of my comfort zone but I tried anyway. Because I love him. his next excuse was that "Sometimes I just like I'm not in the mood, but I really am you have to learn when to know what that is." I was like whaaaaat WHAAAAT HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW. But again I let it go and tried my best, You can imagine by this point I was feeling pretty sexually unattractive and his lack of general affection towards me made me feel even worse. The issues arising in our relationship were more than just sexual, it was things like his kisses turning into quick pecks never with any passion nothing had ANY feeling, the straw that broke the camels back is when i was laying on his bed watching him play video games. I don't mind this I like games too, I've never been the type of "He plays games allll daaaaay and has no timeee forrr meee boo hoo." kinda girl, But this particular day he played game after game after game I was getting bored. He would turn to me in say "Wow your bored." and would continue to play, I tried to get him into bed with me and he blatantly said "No," not the usually awww maybe later baby... What really got me is when he said... "I've played this game a million times I don't even like it but I guess I'll just play it." In my head I thought I'M RIGHT HERE, CAN WE TALK, PLAY A COOP GAME, CUDDLE, FUCK, BAKE COOKIES, DO SOMETHING WITH ME??? He later told me that my desire for sex was insatiable. Yeah we haven't had sex in weeks and for that I had no right to be sexually frustrated.

I left that day, he decided to feel bad about it when I was leaving and one thing I know about Walter, it's cheesy but his eyes say everything. He had genuine sadness in his eyes, and I guess he knew he had upset me in someway, but he didn't know what he was doing.

Now after that we had not talked for 2 weeks. His internet or some shit, which brings me today I go to his house, I didn't get a hug, or I missed you, or how have you been. I just couldn't stand it I tearfully told him how I felt, and he was seriously oblivious, he apologized profusely and HE actually cried, weirds me out when that happens. After we had a long productive talk we were back to ourselves it felt great. During the laughing and the joking I said "Can we have sex now?" he grinned i grinned we had amazing sex and are back on track, I understand him and understands me. He really is a good guy he just needs to stop sleeping when I come over XD.